tatooz5

So, I thought I would put down my thoughts about hanging out with my family this weekend. 1) My brother. I have watched him change BIG TIME since he has been married. My sister in law is very dominant and controlling, so I always thought it was because of her that he has changed so much. This weekend I was looking to see if it was just because she is around that he is that way, but she wasn't there... and he was the same. I miss the old silly brother who likes to goof around and be crazy. I like the brother who has his head on his shoulders about things. His son is out of control and he doesn't discipline him. Noah (his son, my nephew) is starting to not be fun to be around. He is an attention hog... and he has to have things his way... otherwise he screams. To which, my brother doesn't do anything about. Noah is really smart and he knows how to work his dad. It is sad. 2) My grandfather. I knew he was 95... but I didn't know he was going down hill so quickly. He has shrunken into skin and bones. He can't see well or hear. He is suffering from dimentia...and anxiety. He can no longer read... (of couse, he can't see)... and that has always been a love for him. He said that the more time goes by, the more he misses my grandmother. It is just sad. I want him to be happy... and it just seems that it is time for us to let go. He has said that he would like to let go. He is terribly lonely... and wants to move on. We visit when we can, but it is far and few between... My uncle Steve comes to see him everyday... but he is living in a manor that can give him the medical attention he needs, and is sad about that. 3) My dad. Since the email from him, he has made tremendous strides to be more loving and sensitive. And, since the email, I have not had the terrible frustration with him regarding him. I feel as though I am removed from his actions and I am not as embarrassed by them. I am realizing that my dad has a very low self esteem, and that he has to get attention and have people think he is funny to show that he is worthy of people's respect. He is hard to be around sometimes, but it is not unbearable anymore. He is my dad, and I have come to accept him and love him for who he is. 42297
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